THE terrible
night-watch is over,
I
turn where I lie,
To eastward my dim
eyes discover
Faint streaks in the sky ;
Faint streaks on a
faint light that dapples
And dawns like the
ripening of apples,
Closes with darkness
and grapples,
And
darkness must die.
And the dawn finds
us where the dusk found us—
The
quick and the dead ;
Thou dawn-slaying
darkness around us,
Oh
! slay me instead !
Thou pitiless earth
that would sever
Twain souls,
reuniting them never,
Oh, gape and engulf
me for ever,
Oh,
cover my head !
The toils that men
strive with stout-hearted,
The
fears that men fly,
I have known them,
but they have departed,
And
thou hast gone by.
Men toiling, and
straining, and striving,
Are glad,
peradventure, for living ;
I render for life no
thanksgiving,
Glad only to die.
Too alike to me now
are all changes,
Naught gladdens, naught grieves.
Alike, now, pale
snow on the ranges,
Pale gold on the sheaves.
Alike now the hum of
glad bees on
Green boughs, and
the sigh of sad trees on
Sere uplands, the
fall of the season,
The
fall of the leaves.
Alike now each wind
blows the breezes
That kiss where they roam,
The breath of the
March wind that freezes
In
the rime of the loam ;
The storm-blast
that lashes and scourges,
And rends the white
crests of the surges,
As it sweeps with
the thunder of dirges
Across the sea foam.
Alike now all
rainfall and down-fall,
Foul seasons and fair ;
Let the rose on my
patch or the thorn fall,
I
heed not, nor care ;
Nor for grey light
of dawn, nor for dun light
Of dusk, nor for
dazzle of sunlight
At noon ; shall I
seek light, or shun light ?
Seek warmth or seek care ?
Nor for breaking of
fast neither grateful,
Nor
for quenching of thirst,
In the dawn of the
eventide hateful,
In
the noontide accurst,
In the watch of the
night sleep-forsaken
Till that sleep
comes, no watch shall re-waken,
Be the best things
of life never taken,
Never feared be the worst.
Skies laugh, and
buds bloom, and birds warble
At
breaking of day ;
Without and within,
on grey marble,
The
light glimmers grey :
O pale, silent
mouth, surely this is
The spot where death
strikes and life misses :
Warm lips, pressing
cold lips, waste kisses
Clay-cold as cold clay.
Through sunset, and
twilight, and nightfall,
And
night-watches bleak,
We have lain thus. Now broad rays of light fall,
And
flicker, and streak ;
The death-chamber
glancing and shining,
Where death and dead
life lie reclining,
My hand with her
hand intertwining,
My
cheek to her cheek.
I adjure thee by
days spent together,
(So
sad and so few),
By the seasons of
fair and foul weather,
By
the rose and the rue ;
By the storms and
the joys of past hours,
By the thorns of the
earth and the flowers,
By the sun of the
skies and the showers,
By
the mist and the dew,
By the time that
annihilates all things—
Our
woes and our crimes ;
By the gath'ring of
great things and small things
At
the end of all times,
Let thy soul answer
mine through the portal
Of the grave, if the
soul be immortal
(As the wise men of
all climes have taught all
The
fools of all climes).
If these men speak
truth I come quickly—
My life does thee
wrong :
Dost thou languish
in shades peopled thickly
With phantoms that
throng ?
Have they known
thee, my love ? Hast thou known one
To welcome the
stranger and lone one ?
O loved one, O lost
one, mine own one,
I tarry not long.
The flower that no
more shall enwreath us
Turns sunward : the
dove
Sails skyward : the
grass is beneath us,
The birds are above.
Those skies, an
illegible letter,
Seem fairer and
farther, scarce better
Than earth to man,
crushed by life's fetter
When lifeless is
love.
And none can love
twice, says the heathen,
And none can twice
die :
More hopeful than
these are, are we then,
With hopes past the
sky,
Yon judge—will He
swerve from just sentence
For tardy, fear-stricken repentance ?
Ask those who came
hither and went hence,
But hope no reply.
And He who shall
judge us in light :
How, then, shall I
trust
In Him, having
sinned in His sight ?
. . . Is jealous and
just ;
So priests taught me
once, in their learning
Perplexed, slower still in discerning
:
Are ashes to ashes
returning,
And dust seeking
dust.
Can life thrive when life's love expires ?
Are life and love twain ?
Men say so. Nay, all men are liars,
Or all lives are vain.
Let our dead loves and lives be forgotten
With the ripening of fruits that are rotten ;
So we loving fools, dust-begotten,
Go dustward again.